I'm fully aware that there's a less than 50% chance that anyone (unless they're following my page on here) will read this and/or care. However I will still post this and explain the reasons why I've begun giving up with art or at least posting it.
For my GCSE results I received an E grade for my course in Art. This is one of the main reasons why I've started questioning whether or not there's a point in me drawing. I know that I'm being a little dramatic but it was a bit of a kick in the private parts when I saw this grade. A D grade wouldn't have had the same effect but an E just hurt. I understand that I'm not the best artist and I know I've not exactly practiced but that's mostly been due to busyness with coursework in sixth form/college - another reason for my questioning. Although recently I've drawn a couple of drawings (which I may post after this journal entry) I feel that I'm not really committing to drawing. I see wonderful pieces of artwork on here and other sites and I've aspired to reach a point where I too can draw/paint as well as those artists. But I've no motivation any more. Even back in GCSE I wasn't entirely sure if there was a point. Plus I'm a perfectionist which doesn't exactly help the situation. Urgh, I just don't know what to do and I've still yet to develop my own style which is frustrating.
My plan for this summer is to attempt to discover my own style and practice drawing more. If by the end of it I'm not completely happy with my stuff I'll decide what to do then. At this point I'm rambling (I think that's the correct word) so I'll finish off here. The point I was trying to say was that I'm confused about what to do about art and whether there's a point in committing more to it and carrying on.